I have anxiety, depression, and PTSD from DV in my last marriage, my exhusband was Extremely abusive to me. I am constantly being called all kinds of crazy by the legal system- guardian ad litem, thanks to the gaslighting of my exhusband. And they took my granddaughter away, and keep trying to take my 2 younger daughters away, on his behalf. I need help, I don’t know what to do, how do you speak up for yourself against the crooked legal system in SLC, Utah that defends my abusive ex? Why is my mental health the only way they are able to make up lies about me, how is this even legal!? As I’ve only been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and ptsd, now I see why people are scared to seek help or speak up for mental health.

Scared to breathe

I really don’t know how to start this story so I’ll start from the beginning. I’ve never been so confused in my life, I’m a mother of 3 children and we moved here to Utah from East St Louis IL a city where anything goes, but I wanted my children to be prosperous and live a life where they didn’t have to dodge bullets all day and night and because I have two girls I didn’t want them to be like me pregnant at16 and trying to raise a baby and I was still a baby. So I ran I had family here so I ran. When we arrived here it’s something about Utah it’s like you can’t leave , it was good at first I’ve been here 17 years but I can’t breathe. So all of a sudden covid 19 starts and the racial violence had started to fester and I felt it I can’t sleep, my nerves are a wreck and yesterday I was told by my Dr that I’m suffering with yet another thing called anxiety. I was raised by a strong black woman and we never knew anything about anxiety, I’m like WTF , I’m diabetic , high pretension , along with having pageant disease, now I’ve added Anxiety.